So things are good and getting better, I started doing taichi and it is working wonders, been working with photoshop trying to learn as much as possible.
I'm trying to get in the habit of writing a couple of pages of script a day, not a screenplay more a daily exercise of writing good scenes, and learning how to write all of that quicker and make each one better than the last and by accruing experience trying to work with different scenes it'll help me with my screen writing.
I'm writing the script for a friends game. my articles have been going good, and I'm getting into a bit of C++ programming.
all in all still with the sentiment of "I hold in my hands many darts, yet some darts are still not totally formed."
"when a dart has formed and is solid I throw caution to the wind and let the dart or darts fly"
"it is all a matter of which darts stick, and which ones don't"
"and then at that point I will pick up the darts that have fallen and work to make them more solid so they'll hit their mark and stick"
darts=skills
dartboard=me
darts sticking to the dartboard=skills I am taking on
moral=try and get as many darts in your hands as possible and increase the chance that at least one will stick and for all those darts/skills that fall they didn't stick for a reason and so are not solid, therefore I must work harder to form the solid skill that it will travel to the board and stick.
then I can say I have in some capacity and therefore have that skill to a degree. now if you can imagine a large dartboard stuck with all of the darts I have taken into my hands and that all of the darts that stick are my skills. and once all the darts have stuck. it'll be time to pick up more darts. skills in anything especially when it comes to things creative provide for the artist more insight and perception into making their art that much more real, that much more beautiful. take as many skills as you can and leave any that are of no use.